caught. and feeling lost.
the feeling of being caught is a funny thing. i pretty much hate it. even though i sort of wanted to be, i guess i just wanted you to figure me out… then when you did it felt scary.
last night was kind of not the greatest. loving someone is not easy. i guess that goes without saying but its so much different when you are in it. love is so much more than all the benefits, all of the intimacy & all of the fun moments. sometimes i feel like this thing sucks the life out of me. its definitely felt different lately and i hate that - i just want it to get less complicated instead of more.
its funny how “loving” someone can all of the sudden feel so selfish.
my brain is just circling and writing is only confusing me further so for now i will go immerse my mind in music. there i can hopefully find some peace.
